Forward Thinking

I am of big action and small talk
I once ran where I now walk
More like the board and less like the chalk
First comes the awe and then the shock

I stand before myself a wandering man
Who set into motion no project nor plan
Struggling with all that I will, all that I can
I promise to go down your number one fan

Downtrodden, lost, and berated
I've become all that I've hated
Judging where judgement is stated
My failures will soon be paraded

Cast out my fortune and despite my name
I've had little to do with the person you became
With a mouth full of blood, I'll hide my shame
For you and I are one in the same

I fight each day with the monsters inside
Only wanting to run and hide
But this promise to you I will abide
I cannot merely cast this all aside

So bring out your armies, bring out your dead
Nothing's worse than being trapped inside my head
All I needed to say has already been said
As long as that light shines, I won't go to bed