Prayer and Some Plastic Ties by Destined2Fail, literature
Literature
Prayer and Some Plastic Ties
I turned the page and the whole thing burst into flames.
The reasons a blur, but I'll undoubtably take the blame.
My words are neither direct nor clear;
Merely a man fueled by hate and fear.
Circumstances aside, you're not likely to remember my name.
Thoughts run deep, but the synapses run slow.
Furiously searching for one truth to bestow.
My goal is simply to learn why I am.
Is it too much to want to understand?
I went to walk out the door, but I fell flat on my face.
Since that day I've only wanted to get back to that place.
I've tried for years, but I fear I've done all I can.
Like a message in a bottle, the lesson eludes me.
Like a child
Finely Dressed Deception by Destined2Fail, literature
Literature
Finely Dressed Deception
Somewhere between the decision and the action,
I strayed from the path after losing traction.
Everything I've ever written was for you.
Through it all, you're my sole distraction.
After a grain of salt, take that as you will.
I can't decide if it's healthy or if it will kill.
Don't confuse my indecision with regret.
All I feel now is unaffected by the thrill.
I can't drink enough to drown out the sound.
Your song leaves me lost and never found,
Yet I forever hum it's catchy tune.
It leaves my mouth sewn and hands bound.
I know now this is a result of all the white lies.
This hopelessness is retribution for my disguise.
I've made burning brid
With each sun rise comes a struggle I know oh so well
I fight demise and try to fill this whole to my hell
Bitterness screams at me like a voice inside my head
Happiness seems difficult, but I'd rather be dead
Every day we grow older. We owe it to ourselves to not grow colder.
You know how humble I can be
It will be the death of me
I turn away from what I need
My own warning, pay no heed
I've never been able to ask for much, but I need your touch.
Perhaps this is the realization I can't do this on my own
Despite my intentions, I've always been alone
I've shut them all out and relied upon myself
This is me running back to you for
When dawn breaks, but the frost doesn't melt
When the wind blows and stings like a leather belt
As the lightening rains down on us
And the thunder hits you like a bus
You have safe haven here
There is no fear I have not felt
When the nausea sets in after what seems a grave mistake
When you can't get an ounce of sleep for your own sake
After your head feels like it will burst
And you can't satiate your only thirst
You always have my ear
There is no feeling I can't fake
When it seems that chain is too heavy to rise above
When your dreams are plagued by a solitary dove
As all colors slowly fade to grey
And your nights drown in dis
This desperation is shared; I can sense it
The term is too broad,
But I can't condense it
The ones we call ghosts haunt my dreams
Perhaps we're all hosts
Well I'm tearing at the seems
These night terrors will be the death of me
Lost loved ones torture me in my sleep
I can't help but feel
That there's some secret they keep
The look in their eyes
The sound of their voice
They see through my disguise
And speak to me in white noise
My heart feels that it's real, but my mind knows better
Am I locked in a battle between good and evil?
Time will tell; We're all in this together
This isn't some convoluted song about love
Or some sappy story about rising above
This is about decisions made subconsciously
That no matter how hard you try; you can't figure out why
This is about the regret that sinks in
When the smoke lifts from the explosion
And all that's revealed is destruction
This is about when all that hope for things anew
Is spent remembering what was lost because of you
When all you need is in front of you, but it's too close to focus
This about running
I fight the night just to catch some sleep
I pray for kind ears just to have secrets to keep
I wait to be found so I can hide once more
I o
My chest still burns from the shock.
It seemed like a decade, but mere seconds fell from the clock.
There was no blinding light, no hell fire.
Only eternal restlessness from this cold and lonely desire.
A certain calmness settled in that day
As if I found comfort in the thought of constant disarray
I fought the light and prayed for sleep
To somehow forget that these lies pulled me in too deep
The days passed me by, for all I know it's been years
When I caught those eyes it halted the churning gears
My chest started to burn for another reason
It seems I found hope in the changing of the season
The cold gave way as summer exha
I am of big action and small talk
I once ran where I now walk
More like the board and less like the chalk
First comes the awe and then the shock
I stand before myself a wandering man
Who set into motion no project nor plan
Struggling with all that I will, all that I can
I promise to go down your number one fan
Downtrodden, lost, and berated
I've become all that I've hated
Judging where judgement is stated
My failures will soon be paraded
Cast out my fortune and despite my name
I've had little to do with the person you became
With a mouth full of blood, I'll hide my shame
For you and I are one in the same
I fight each day with the mon
There's times when I believe that I couldn't wake up without this feeling
It's awkward yet welcoming, as if my heart would respond to some healing
Anymore it's hard to tell what being content feels like
Perhaps I can't be happy without this mountain to hike
We're told from too young of an age what it means to get old
We all need a white picket fence and family of five
Life is not a lesson, forget and unfold
This road is about to get violent to say the least
But I refuse to steer anymore
May this life take me where it pleases, famine or feast
This is not a letter of resignation, no I'm not giving up
I've simply had to adjust so
Every time we speak this pressure builds up inside my heart
As if I had some life changing information to share
But when the feeling hits my throat the words just fall apart
It's not a lack of things to say, rather I've said them all before
I get lost within myself every night, but I still can't forget
Maybe it's a lack of effort, or maybe this is my encore
From the inside it feels like some life or death struggle
But to the outsiders its a refusal to let go
I've argued until my veins swell in anger, I have no rebuttal
My dreams are like a bad song stuck on repeat
Waking nightmares stain my mind forever
Each morning I wash my
Prayer and Some Plastic Ties by Destined2Fail, literature
Literature
Prayer and Some Plastic Ties
I turned the page and the whole thing burst into flames.
The reasons a blur, but I'll undoubtably take the blame.
My words are neither direct nor clear;
Merely a man fueled by hate and fear.
Circumstances aside, you're not likely to remember my name.
Thoughts run deep, but the synapses run slow.
Furiously searching for one truth to bestow.
My goal is simply to learn why I am.
Is it too much to want to understand?
I went to walk out the door, but I fell flat on my face.
Since that day I've only wanted to get back to that place.
I've tried for years, but I fear I've done all I can.
Like a message in a bottle, the lesson eludes me.
Like a child
Finely Dressed Deception by Destined2Fail, literature
Literature
Finely Dressed Deception
Somewhere between the decision and the action,
I strayed from the path after losing traction.
Everything I've ever written was for you.
Through it all, you're my sole distraction.
After a grain of salt, take that as you will.
I can't decide if it's healthy or if it will kill.
Don't confuse my indecision with regret.
All I feel now is unaffected by the thrill.
I can't drink enough to drown out the sound.
Your song leaves me lost and never found,
Yet I forever hum it's catchy tune.
It leaves my mouth sewn and hands bound.
I know now this is a result of all the white lies.
This hopelessness is retribution for my disguise.
I've made burning brid
With each sun rise comes a struggle I know oh so well
I fight demise and try to fill this whole to my hell
Bitterness screams at me like a voice inside my head
Happiness seems difficult, but I'd rather be dead
Every day we grow older. We owe it to ourselves to not grow colder.
You know how humble I can be
It will be the death of me
I turn away from what I need
My own warning, pay no heed
I've never been able to ask for much, but I need your touch.
Perhaps this is the realization I can't do this on my own
Despite my intentions, I've always been alone
I've shut them all out and relied upon myself
This is me running back to you for
When dawn breaks, but the frost doesn't melt
When the wind blows and stings like a leather belt
As the lightening rains down on us
And the thunder hits you like a bus
You have safe haven here
There is no fear I have not felt
When the nausea sets in after what seems a grave mistake
When you can't get an ounce of sleep for your own sake
After your head feels like it will burst
And you can't satiate your only thirst
You always have my ear
There is no feeling I can't fake
When it seems that chain is too heavy to rise above
When your dreams are plagued by a solitary dove
As all colors slowly fade to grey
And your nights drown in dis
This desperation is shared; I can sense it
The term is too broad,
But I can't condense it
The ones we call ghosts haunt my dreams
Perhaps we're all hosts
Well I'm tearing at the seems
These night terrors will be the death of me
Lost loved ones torture me in my sleep
I can't help but feel
That there's some secret they keep
The look in their eyes
The sound of their voice
They see through my disguise
And speak to me in white noise
My heart feels that it's real, but my mind knows better
Am I locked in a battle between good and evil?
Time will tell; We're all in this together
This isn't some convoluted song about love
Or some sappy story about rising above
This is about decisions made subconsciously
That no matter how hard you try; you can't figure out why
This is about the regret that sinks in
When the smoke lifts from the explosion
And all that's revealed is destruction
This is about when all that hope for things anew
Is spent remembering what was lost because of you
When all you need is in front of you, but it's too close to focus
This about running
I fight the night just to catch some sleep
I pray for kind ears just to have secrets to keep
I wait to be found so I can hide once more
I o
My chest still burns from the shock.
It seemed like a decade, but mere seconds fell from the clock.
There was no blinding light, no hell fire.
Only eternal restlessness from this cold and lonely desire.
A certain calmness settled in that day
As if I found comfort in the thought of constant disarray
I fought the light and prayed for sleep
To somehow forget that these lies pulled me in too deep
The days passed me by, for all I know it's been years
When I caught those eyes it halted the churning gears
My chest started to burn for another reason
It seems I found hope in the changing of the season
The cold gave way as summer exha
I am of big action and small talk
I once ran where I now walk
More like the board and less like the chalk
First comes the awe and then the shock
I stand before myself a wandering man
Who set into motion no project nor plan
Struggling with all that I will, all that I can
I promise to go down your number one fan
Downtrodden, lost, and berated
I've become all that I've hated
Judging where judgement is stated
My failures will soon be paraded
Cast out my fortune and despite my name
I've had little to do with the person you became
With a mouth full of blood, I'll hide my shame
For you and I are one in the same
I fight each day with the mon
There's times when I believe that I couldn't wake up without this feeling
It's awkward yet welcoming, as if my heart would respond to some healing
Anymore it's hard to tell what being content feels like
Perhaps I can't be happy without this mountain to hike
We're told from too young of an age what it means to get old
We all need a white picket fence and family of five
Life is not a lesson, forget and unfold
This road is about to get violent to say the least
But I refuse to steer anymore
May this life take me where it pleases, famine or feast
This is not a letter of resignation, no I'm not giving up
I've simply had to adjust so
Every time we speak this pressure builds up inside my heart
As if I had some life changing information to share
But when the feeling hits my throat the words just fall apart
It's not a lack of things to say, rather I've said them all before
I get lost within myself every night, but I still can't forget
Maybe it's a lack of effort, or maybe this is my encore
From the inside it feels like some life or death struggle
But to the outsiders its a refusal to let go
I've argued until my veins swell in anger, I have no rebuttal
My dreams are like a bad song stuck on repeat
Waking nightmares stain my mind forever
Each morning I wash my
I did spend time
throwing my body over couches,
sighing deep from the belly
to sad music and murky martinis.
I was so heavy
I would crash land
at the bottom of long-necked bottles with
red stained lips.
But I have finished that crying now.
I'm standing, whole, in heels, somehow.
Calloused and glittering.
Living.
Thing.
And I'm feeling rather cat-like down here off the wing.
Devils have romanced angels since the beginning of time,
charmed them stark raving naked in organized crime,
and they've all gone tumbling down, skirts in the air,
into forests of red fingernails, lost and impaired.
I met some new friends there.
And in
Everyone likes to sing along
But I f**king hate this song
Its doesn't feel too wrong
To wish everyone was gone
I never wanted to belong
No we won't be here for long
Suddenly I'm not feeling well
This place is seeming more like hell
Something's gone wrong and I can tell
Spinning constantly on this carousel
I reached the top but I still fell
I wish I had a soul to sell
I keep telling myself that soon it will all turn around
As if I've lost something that's out there to be found
I desolate myself as if there's something to ponder
Desperation  washes over me leaving my mind to wander
The calendar has become my worst enemy
These hands are so calloused they no longer feel
I can't remember the last time I've eaten a decent meal
The doctors say my only battle is against stress
But it goes deeper than that; I drink and I digress
It seems I'm addicted to loneliness
I feel as if so much needs to be said
But by the time they reach my lips
The words are dead
Do you hear the jet plane yawning miles across the sky?
Do you hear the garbage truck back down the boulevard, setting off car alarms as it passes by?
Do you hear the static of one thousand detuned radios?
Shut the window , love. Shut the world outside.
I don't want to think about anyone, but the footsteps are getting louder.
Drowning out the sound of the rain as it knocks on the windowsill.
I'm not answering the phone -- let it ring.
Lately I've been feeling like a falling bomb.
The ground is getting closer and the sky is falling down...